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Monday, September 1, 2008

11-10-2045: Sarah With the Papers to Sign

I heard the door
but I felt like it was upside down
so I stayed on the floor
and soon enough they let her in
Sarah
Sarah with the papers to sign
Sarah
Sarah wanting her piece of mine/mind
she makes the plans and she wears the pants that I -
I can't seem to find

I keep dropping the pen
she just wants it to end
we write my name together

It's pathetic but everything came down to whether or not I was rich
she tells me it wasn't the money but I find it funny that losing my job is what toggled the switch
she says it's painful to be in the house with me
but never complained when she had half my salary
she says that I have a problem with pills
the real problem is all the credit card bills.
You take the house.. the kids... the money...

I took the pills because they were there
and they even me out... make me act right

No I took the pills because I don't dare
to be thinking about the mistake of my life

She stone froze
when I touched her face
I said, "How can they expect us to raise our own replacements? It's insane!"
Nothing sounded right when it left my mouth
she didn't say a word to try to pull me out
she left me on a hotel floor to rot,
alone with my lonely thoughts

It's pathetic but everything came down to whether or not I was rich
she tells me it wasn't the money but I find it funny that losing my job is what toggled the switch
she says it's painful to be in the house with me
but never complained when she had half my salary
she says that I have a problem with pills
the real problem is all the credit card bills.

She tells the kids that I ruined her life
what kind of wife - what kind of human tells that to her children?
About their father!
Even if I did want to get better, why bother?
you screw up just once - for one second -
ONE TIME! and they won't let you ever forget it
happiness will ruin your life if you let it...
you can bet on it.

2045

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