The Easy Life

I'm barely here

I'm barely here

my skin's so thin 

the fluorescents shine right through it 

Can they see how close I am?

like an abscess leaking fluid 

How many people in this store

are just about to lose it?

I ran up to the counter

like a man who's on fire

crying out to the pharmacist,

"Give me something to make the world smaller,

something to make the world smaller,

I need something to make the world smaller for me.” 

‘Cause I just can't handle this easy life

gotta find something wrong just to feel alright

I just can't stand this easy life

am I afraid of love, or just love a fight?

Oh no

Lately it seems so easy 

to get paralyzed by the size of things

(oh no, no no)

my soul’s agoraphobic,

I can't find a light to shine in the night of things

(oh no, no no)

I need a motorbike or a puppy,

some gravity to turn the tide of things

(oh no, no no)

it's so easy to lose your narrative 

when you question the wrong and right of things

When I think about

all that pain I caused

to the girls I’ve loved

and the friends I lost

I wonder how I ever sleep at night…

    

I guess I just can't handle this easy life

gotta find something wrong just to feel alright

I just can’t stand this easy life

am I afraid of love, or just love a fight?

[repeat ad nauseam]